Swiss torture - Enabling Psychopaths on behalf of the FCDO

Any parent has a natural instinct, whether they are aware of it or not, to protect their children. It is a very visceral instinct. I believe women feel this very strong instinct first, due to the fact our hormones change as soon as we become pregnant. I noticed as soon as I became pregnant with Danny that my body was amazingly strong, protective and capable of amazing things. Growing a baby inside you is nothing a man can experience. Growing a little human being actually makes you a strong person and a more compassionate person. Well, it did this for me anyway. For a woman, you realise what it is to be a woman and not just a person, a human being. Men, also experience this visceral instinct but in a different way. These two instincts are very different in men and women - good men and women!

I was 21 when I became pregnant with Danny. I was a musician at the time, playing keyboards in a band in the Borders of Scotland and attending a music course in Edinburgh. I used to cycle five days a week from Temple, in Midlothian to The Inch just to do music. It was at a time when there were only tiny grants. I dropped out to look after my son. Being naturally gifted from a young age I loved music but in fact I was too introverted to be in the competitive music industry and it wasn't such a big disappointment to leave. Music remains a strong part of my life. You can never 'lose' music. I was actually quite a naive 21-year-old. I had never had a father and had a rather idealistic and ignorant view of men. I had had two very abusive brothers though and at the time was completely unaware as to how they had influenced my perception of what a 'normal man' did, acted and said. It was a very warped idea of what a man was. So, I had a brief relationship with a very abusive man who was very similar to my two half-brothers, Christopher Turnbull (the manipulative bully and surrogate husband for my mother) and Alistair Turnbull (the intellectually stunted, head banging, extremely violent third bastard of the third married man my mother had a child too).

We were all called bastards and 'illegitimate' at that time. Not that it bothered me. Sticks and stones. You can read about this past life that I put behind me when Danny was about 2 years old. I cut all of them out except my damaged maternal mother. I only allowed my mother access now and then, on the caveat that she keeps them away from her sick children and their families. It was a naive approach and it backfired in a devastating way. I really didn't know who she was at all! When I realised, after I left the UK for the second time (was only there because of the pandemic - I got locked in) that these people were enthusiastically and seriously stalking me globally, not just in the UK now, while I was in China, I wrote a book just to put the record straight. In writing the book under a pseudonym I tried to keep my past life quiet because I had moved on and left the UK. Leaving the UK in 2013 was my final cut-off point - I thought I had achieved the privacy and dignity I wasn't afforded when Danny was murdered by these psychopaths.

It isn't a well-written book. It wasn't written enthusiastically or with any adrenalin or vengeful attitude. It actually lacks passion. It lack conviction. It lacks care. The only thing to me it contains is a defensive attitude, because I wasn't writing it from the perspective of someone who cares about these people. It wasn't written from a time when I was enthusiastic about writing. It isn't written about something, a time in my life, which I have ever believed is beneficial to write about. It doesn't reflect the feelings I feel or the feelings I felt when they killed my child or caused my other child to be ostracised by their lies. It is like a very dispassionate report that was written to stop these animals approaching me. It was written in a very defensive way and not for me and that is why I do not like that book. I felt forced to write it and being forced to do something against my will, is exactly what child abusers and child killers want. I was being forced, in China of all places, to consider their feelings and respond to their feelings, and I am still being forced to do this, even though I have absolutely no relationship with these psychopaths. The reason I am being forced is because the British state and the FCDO and the IPT Court, via Lord Colin Boyd have ENABLED these monsters to attack me.

Now I have to write another report on how they have done this. This is a report. It is not my choice to write about these animals. I am forced, in the same way I was forced as a little girl, to give them pleasure and joy from the pain they caused and are causing me and the joy they have when they see me in pain, unable to defend myself; and because even today they stalk me, hire private investigators and contact the FCDO, Embassies and Police claiming we 'are family'. I am forced in the same way I had to write 'The Rapist's Child' in 2022, in Dalian, China, to consider their feelings and the feelings of those who have supported them, enabled them and encouraged them to 'get in touch'! I am forced to make everything public so that they can abuse my humanity once again, even as a 58 year old woman. It is depraved! I have no relationship to these people. I do not speak to them and chose to not speak to them from about 1995. Over thirty years ago! It is not healthy to keep referring to people who killed your son and abused us both. It is extremely damaging and unhealthy, but I am forced, because of this idea of 'family - blood', which people do not examine enough.

When you are forced to talk about your inner-most, private and personal feelings openly, so that the people forcing you to do this can ridicule and humiliate you, it is a reflection of how sadistic, incompetent and psychopathic the 'structures' that force you to do this in fact are. It is not a healing or humanistic approach to a private matter. It is a sadistic sick implicit demand from a societal structure that exists for its own sickness. The structure is the FCDO, Embassies across the world, institutions within the United Kingdom which are similarly dominated it seems with similarly sadistic individuals. Not to mention the Swiss side of the very same institutions. That people, even so called 'professionals', do not recognise psychopaths, sadists and child killers, is because sadists and psychopaths have the strongest desire to hide who they truly are and so if you have never met one, understand one or know how to deal with them, you become their victim. I grew up with psychopaths so I can spot their behaviour at a continent's distance. I have an excellent memory!

And, let me be clear, these 'feelings' are old feelings, not the restructured, distant, healthily reframed, unimportant true feelings I feel now, but old feelings. As in, feelings that do not influence my day to day life. Feelings that I put behind me when I cut them out and sought out therapy (30 years ago) to reframe my childhood. Feelings that are not actually strong feelings at all, but are descriptions of feelings of when they were able to do to me what they are currently doing to me, with the help of Colin Boyd and the FCDO. The feelings about my childhood are just memories, not influencing feelings, not important feelings and not even strong feelings. Historical unimportant bullshit. The feelings I have now about these monsters and the reason they have been attacking me again, openly, since 2018, with the help of the British State, and some very disgusting Iraqi Kurds, are more superficial because I made these people completely unimportant when I realised Boyd had enabled them. It was not easy. It took ten years. Ten years of living in the same city as them. Ten years of being labelled. Ten years of coming to terms with the injustice that they murdered my child and got away with it. This is the only approach you have to take to child killers who have been exonerated and enabled. You have to distance yourself from them, their mentality and their effect. To survive. And, that is what I did. I was happy in Iraq. Very happy. It was safer than Scotland.

And, let me explain one more thing about psychopaths. That is exactly why and when they like to attack you the most - when you are happy, have moved on and do not care about them. Because, they can then claim that YOU are the psychopath because you speak dispassionately, for your own survival about what the psychopath did. Or, you do not speak about it at all, so as not to give them the pelasure and power of realising they killed an innocent child in order to destroy another human being's life. They can also then claim the reason you don't speak is because of guilt and when you do speak, they can have the pleasure of seeing your pain again. This is the psychopath's mentality. That is what the psychopath wants - to know they were successful in sadistically killing someone and can watch your pain, even in another country when you are asking for protection. They hide this very well and their victims are not fully understood. Even so called 'professionals and experts' cannot tell a victim from the psychopath attacking the victim. Now, let me give you examples of how Christopher Turnbull and Colin Boyd have done this, in particular. Starting in Switzerland.

Asylum Camps In Switzerland

I am in Bure asylum camp having recently arrived in Switzerland after being denied an appeal in Scotland in my IPT case against the FCDO. After being told I was a national security risk and the UK can do anything to me. After I wrote my book, 'The Rapist's Child', which I am absolutely sure Colin Tyre knew about. So, the establishment knew I had told the truth and once they read the book they could see what happened, without a shadow of a doubt. The truth had eventually been exposed, but again at my expense.

So, I was in Bure, and had been there for two days maximum. A report had been sent to the camp from SPoMi. I had not been interviewed by immigration yet, so they did not know why I was asking for political asylum. The FCDO immediately contacted the Swiss to 'promote their narrative'. The reports sent to Switzerland came directly from the FCDO. This is their job!

I am sitting in a corridor reading a book and an Arab comes up to me that works for ORS, the organisation that manages asylum camps across Europe (very corrupt - I will write about this soon). He tells me, 'You have offended a man. You have offended every single person in this camp.' There are at least three or four security guards standing at a slight distance. Everyone is calm apart from this Arab ORS staff member. I know what the situation is about because I know this is how I have been treated since I went to work in China in 2021 (it is 2023). I know I am being treated like a criminal, like I have done something horrendous and inhumane, and I know the only other time I have been treated like this was by the Turnbulls (Christopher, Alistair, Morna and Jenny Turnbull) and Colin Boyd. (It is important to note I have NEVER been accused of any crime.) So, I do what I always have to do: I patiently watch and wait! I watch and wait until the person reacting like this reveals why they are acting like this and it is never what they claim is the reason. So, the reason he is acting like this has nothing to do with this Arab Muslim's defence of another Arab man pretending to be transgender. It has nothing to do with that all. His reaction, as the security guards can also see, is way, way over the top and far too extreme to be about a tiny request for a man to leave the female room, which he willingly complied with. It is a far, far more extreme reaction to something else. This extreme reaction is something I have been experiencing since I arrived in the UK after leaving Saqi Barzani's fake University. I am calm, as I almost always am.

CALM!

The Arab ORS staff member can hardly contain himself. He is treating me like I am an animal. I won't go into detail here but it resulted in me calling the police and the police warning him! After this, after the police, this same Arab forced me to sleep right in the middle of hundreds of recently arrived, unvetted dangerous men. In the men's room. The only female. And, he does not give a reason for this. Security cannot challenge him. ORS have control. He deliberately puts me in danger. He tells lots of lies to Swiss immigration and SPoMi and nobody will answer me. I am victimized. MY human rights are absolutely denied. It sends a message to all the other asylum seekers, publicly, that I can be attacked and I will not be protected!

This situation occurs multiple times, to the point in these camps where I am being tortured daily.

When I eventually get an interview with Swiss Immigration (SEM), the FCDO have done their job perfectly, and instead of being asked about why I was asking for protection, the immigration officer interviews me and focuses solely on: What happened to your children? For three hours. She interrogates me in way that implies she believes both my children are dead and I am to blame. She basically interviews me and gets the information Police Scotland and the FCDO do not have: MY side of what happened to my son. The murder of my son. She conducts an investigation about the murder of my child on behalf of the FCDO and Police Scotland!

The Swiss Immigration, currently refuse to release all documents relating to these interviews, even though I have a right under the Swiss Immigration laws to have ALL RECORDS. These records are evidence of the collusion between the FCDO and the Swiss authorities and are proof that I was tortured by Switzerland on behalf of the FCDO. At the end of the first interview with immigration I calmly state: You have not asked me about my reason for asking for asylum!

SPoMi, via Micheal Vallelian, the man who wrote the cover letter to this post, continued to torture me, from October 2023, to when I escaped in December 2024 and up until July 2025. The cover letter to this post states:

You must leave Switzerland - which I try to do but they refuse to return my passport.

You must give us a one- year residency visa to a country of our choosing.

You must provide proof that you are leaving.

This is completely illegal, arbitrary and cannot be complied with. Number one, I hold a British Passport and can travel to over one hundred countries and receive a visa on arrival. Number two, to get a residency visa you need a passport. Number three, these conditions are not part of the Swiss Asylum policy - they cannot be complied with because Switzerland refuses to return my passport, and continue for eight months to refuse to return my passport AFTER I leave Switzerland. Number four, I complied with all the LEGAL conditions for leaving the country LEGALLY and Switzerland illegally made up arbitrary conditions in order to try to force me to return to the UK, where they were intending on incarcerating and silencing me, which they later admitted to when I was forced to ask for protection from Switzerland (in Croatia and Bosnia), due to the fact they stole my passport and denied me my liberty and all human rights.

In the second interview, I tell them the reason, two months later, but by this time I have been tortured and they continue to torture me. I will detail the torture here. They are now complicit in my persecution and it does not matter to me at all whether it was through coercion or ignorance. I told them the truth. I was right there in front of them, explaining clearly. They refused to listen. If you refuse to listen you are culpable!