Science for Justice - Professor Gill and Lucy Letby (The barbarity of UK justice)

This is a compilation of the blog posts on Science for Justice, Netherlands - you can find the link at the top of this website. The post(s) below and the up-and-coming additions, reposted here, are more accurate in terms of better grammar, better ways of expressing things and more thorough. Professor Gill posted my first two blogs posts out of urgency, as I don't know when I will next have the luxury of uninterrupted WIFI (I cannot afford it) or the private space in which to write; or indeed a computer to write on.

Working backwards - 2026 to 2005 

I will work backwards in my account of what has happened to me since my son was murdered in 2005, aged only sixteen years old. This is to give you an idea of how I got to the place I am currently in, because without this background you will not understand anything and you will probably think I am crazy or making stuff up.  I am not. 

My son's name is (was) Dixie Daniel (Danny) Turnbull and I would post a picture of my wonderful son but the mementos I have of my children are in storage in Edinburgh.  I had a hard drive which was stolen by a Russian in an asylum camp in Croatia (during my third forced request for asylum refugee status) which had everything on it.  Now I only have the storage.  Danny was very smart; very, very talented and funny.  He could have an accent, and he was a comic genius. in my humble, biased opinion, of course.  He was very popular at school, and he could be a bit of a rogue, deliberately causing mischief if he felt he or someone else was being treated badly.  I believe I instilled this moral attitude in him due to the moral battles I had with my disgusting family. Due to my decision to limit their contact with my children, to protect my boys. I will try my best not to give these narcissists the time of day here and hopefully you will see why when I am finished. 

Don't let that introduction distract you. I am writing this story from multiple perspectives. 

From the current situation. 

I am living in extreme poverty, in Asia, and only manage to feed myself and have a roof due to the kindness of Science for Justice, Netherlands and Professor Gill. This poverty is as a result of persecution and being denied asylum in Switzerland, Croatia and Bosnia (a two-year journey - Oct 2023 to Aug 2025).  It is also the result of having my passport kidnapped by Switzerland who kept it even after I left Switzerland for an additional eight months, after repeated lies and illegal demands from them, saying: 

You can have your passport if you agree to leave and give us tickets. We did; they still refused. 

After they refused to follow that rule, they then said, to a very expensive Swiss lawyer: 

You can only have your passport if you supply us with tickets PLUS. Show us that you have a one-year residency visa (an impossibility without your passport). 

You can read about this on my website, kindly paid for by Science for Justice:  www.lucyinbetween.com 

I left Switzerland on foot as a result.  Crossed European borders, all the way to Serbia, on my own, without a passport. One of their stipulations was that I was to leave the Schengen area - again I complied and again they denied my passport in Sarajevo. The Swiss government only agreed to return it after Professor Gill asked them for it.  So, after claiming they would only return it to me after I submitted tickets and a residency visa, they then sent it to Professor Gill, in another country to me, without any explanation at all.  They sent it because they were afraid of Richard Gill, not because I was not making valid arguments, or that my Swiss friends were not making valid arguments, or because I was not complying with their illegal demands, but because Richard has status, connections, influence and is not afraid to challenge those in power. 

Professor Gill 

I asked Professor Richard Gill (a one in a million person whom I managed to get the attention of, miraculously) because his Netherlands Not for Profit and his history demonstrated to me that he has excellent tenacity (stubbornness - a value and character I also hold), unusual compassion and objectivity of the highest scientific kind (though he has made some serious errors in his public assertions, which he has apologized for and I forgave him). I knew all of this because of his past achievements, which are multiple and correctly documented. 

Praise should be given where it is due.  It is difficult to apologize when you have spent your career being as correct as he has been, but admitting fault demonstrates a high level of intelligence.  Mistakes are important to learning.   

Switzerland is as corrupt as the UK. 

As I write about my recent experiences, from 2020 to today, I want you to be aware as I write that my child was murdered, that no state actor (police, Judge Colin Boyd, the Crown and Prosecution Service of Scotland (COPFS)) gave the slightest bit of concern concerning the murder of my child or for the rights of my other, ten-year-old son, to be treated with dignity and respect. Losing a most cherished and loved brother, his idol, at ten years old, devastated my sensitive and gentle son.  It also ruined our relationship when his father decided, at 17 years' old, that he wanted to be a 'family man' and persuaded a naïve and kind child to live with him and his new wife, to prove to her he was a ‘responsible parent’.  A largely sudden change of character! 

We had had an argument, a very rare thing between myself and my youngest son.  And then he left.  He was 17.  I have seen him twice since then. I went searching for him and found him twice. HE refused to speak to me, walking away from me, saying nothing. He is 32 years old this year.  His teenage years and his time growing into a man, was also taken from me, by his nasty father.  I was denied the very basic right to watch both my precious boys from growing up. Danny from aged 16 and my other son from aged 17. I sacrificed everything for my children and gave them everything. That relationship is now irreparable. What was my life as a mother about?  To support murderers?  To support abusive fathers who only turned up when it was convenient for them?  To support an abusive, sadistic, and incompetent justice system? To support bent judges? To simply shut up or be what - locked up, silenced?  All of these. 

But, as I said, don't let the story of my murdered child let you think this is all this series of blog posts is about.  That would be wrong.  My story is about corruption, devastation caused by corrupt, immoral and sadistic people in power and sadism from the same people.  People who are supposed to do the opposite of that - restore justice! 

Danny's murder was deliberately covered up, and I knew this from the moment I was told he was dead by the youngest police officers they could find (deliberately chosen I believe to demonstrate a lack of respect to me as his mother). This is a pattern I have seen towards me from Police Scotland and Colin Boyd for 21 years - in Edinburgh and in his now new post as Vice President of the Investigatory Powers Tribunal.  The lengths they have gone to try to shut me up will be unbelievable to you.   

It wasn't through a lack of effort on my part to try to hold these people to account after my son was murdered.  His murder was covered.  I was refused an investigation.  I was denied absolutely any reason from Judge Colin Boyd, who felt no moral compulsion to explain why no Fatal Accident Inquiry would take place into the sudden death (an insulting term - MURDER) of my sixteen-year-old boy. We were deliberately brutalized by the system.  Me. The mother and only parent of my first child. The only parent who was there from birth to death.  The only one.  Alone. The only parent who was there for his devastated little brother. His brother was deeply hurt, and I am confident it shaped his personality as a man.  My youngest son’s mostly absent father, went on holiday on the day of Danny's funerall and told him:  Not to cry! 

As a single parent, from 1989 t0 2005, I bought my house, got a Masters' Degree in Sociology, did a CELTA, worked all the time around my children's school times, worked for the Scottish Government whilst studying at Edinburgh University.  For my boys.  Three months after I did my first CELTA,in 2005, someone murdered my son.  I believe they did it out of jealousy, and I believe they did it because I was trying my best to leave Scotland with both my children. 

To be happy. 

As a result of this brutal and callous cover up, I decided to wait! Wait for the right moment, when I was where I thought it was a safe space, where I could start to write.  That place was China, in 2022, seventeen years after my son was murdered.  I waited seventeen years. 

But this isn't a story just about the most devastating thing a parent can experience.  The death, or even worse, the murder of their child.  This is about much more than that.  This is also about Judge Colin Boyd, who was the Procurator Fiscal of Scotland in 2005. It is also about the Investigative Powers Tribunal (IPT) who used my son's murder to try to silence me in 2022 and 2023 (I was the plaintiff). It is known that lies being written by those in the justice system intended to cause harm, and that is one of the reasons I got in touch with Professor Richard Gill.  His campaign for Lucy Letby, a completely innocent person, and the lies told to parents that their children were murdered, share parallels with my own life story about how a corrupt system intentionally destroys the lives of innocent people because they challenge authority and the status quo.  What is happening to Lucy Letby is a story of brutality.  In my opinion, deliberate, sadistic persecution for the benefit of those in positions of power, including and especially, JUDGES and POLICE.  I escaped; Lucy did not. 

This is about my exposure to widespread corruption involving the IPT Court, the Foreign and Commonwealth Development Office (FCDO) and multiple embassies around the world (I left the UK in 2013) circulating disgusting, baseless, dangerous lies which I believe started with Judge Colin Boyd in 2005 and continued with Boyd in the IPT court in 2022.  Lies he used, and I am absolutely confident, intended to use, to silence me whenever or if ever I became a 'problem'.  It is also about the complicity of the City of Edinburgh Council and 'experts' employed by the FCDO. 

To give you some idea about how long and how bad this got, I requested political asylum in Switzerland (the biggest mistake I ever made), in October 2023, just after my attempted IPT Appeal in the Scottish Inner House of the High Court (which was refused).  I asked for asylum on the solid basis that I was being persecuted for exposing corruption in the justice system, global corruption involving the Barzanis of Kurdistan, Iraq and in the US courts. 

I requested asylum on the basis many asylum seekers do, except I had legal evidence and I provided it: 

I was being persecuted, silenced and denied my right to legal defense and told I had no more human rights (officially - in the IPT court's official refusal to grant me an appeal against the IPT Decision that 'Nothing illegal took place' regarding the surveillance I was put under by Police Scotland after I returned from Iraq in 2020) and that I could not appeal to the European Court of Human Rights.  My 'right to appeal ends here (Judge Colin Tyre), in Scotland, in 2023. 

Tortured in Switzerland on behalf of Starmer and the FCDO. 

I was deliberately tortured in Switzerland, on behalf of the British FCDO, Sir Keir Starmer and Police Scotland and in complicity with every single foreign minister from October 2023 to this very day.  Every single foreign minister is aware of what has happened to me, is complicit in not stopping it and is now complicit in supporting the lies the FCDO have circulated about me and are still circulating about me.  The FCDO, along with Foreign Ministers and Prime Ministers, are the only people who have far enough reach (through embassies) to ruin someone's life like that, globally.  I will provide the evidence as I retell my story, some of which is already available on my website: www.lucyinbetween.com. 

Switzerland refused me asylum, on the basis that, 'the UK has a functioning justice system where I can challenge false assertions made about me'.  This assertion was concretely disproven to me in asylum interviews in Switzerland and when the nice immigration officer first interviewed me for three hours, around November 2023, instead of asking me why I was seeking asylum, she interviewed me as if I was guilty of something, on behalf of Police Scotland, who never interviewed me when my son was murdered. Police Scotland asked them to follow a line of questioning to try to traumatize me and to let me know they could harass me wherever I went. This is their MO. They got Swiss immigration to ask questions they should have asked when my son died but the questions were along the lines of:  You are guilty of neglect or abuse.  You did not raise your own children.  Your ‘family’ raised your children. What kind people they are! Both your children are dead!  

(This was the same line of questioning I had from an HR woman in China, in 2022, a year after I left Scotland (in the middle of the pandemic and at a cost of over 3000 pounds to me) and started a new job, and after Jeremy Balfour told me I had been secretly (and therefore illegally) put on a VPD (Vulnerable Persons Database) after trying to report Barzani crimes. The police officer commit malfeasance by committing fraud. (I collect state enemies the more I speak.)  

The lies they (Police Scotland; the FCDO; Starmer) would have told Swiss immigration to follow that line of questioning are very obvious.   

‘Your son died this morning!’ October 2005 

Police Scotland, in 2005, when my eldest child died, did not interview me or even speak to me except to tell me - your son died this morning (I asked them not to say anything and to write it down because I could not hear the words I knew they were about to tell me.  Police do not come to your door in that manner except to tell you of a death. It was the third death I was informed of in five years. By two stupid police officers.)  What police Scotland did after this, in 2021 was so brutal and the horrendous lies they told, which they then circulated to China, destroyed my happiness.  The deliberate sadism destroyed my happiness, and it still takes my happiness, which I worked hard to gain.  It was not easy. I had to leave the UK to do so in 2013. 

Only once, when I tried for a third time to make a missing person report about my son in 2021 (which they eventually accepted) did Police Scotland apologise for the way they handled that request. Are Police Scotland competent at anything but messing people around, lying, being misogynistic, obtuse and subverting legal processes to protect citizens’ rights? A police officer deliberately left a recorded message on my phone saying: 

Who the fuck does she think we are? 

If her son left her when he was a kid, she has no right to know where he is.  What the fuck are we supposed to do! Eh! (along those lines) 

(Why did he think I did not raise my own children? Who told him that?) 

His abusive message was recorded in my voice messages, which they tried to deny.  Only because of this did they ‘apologise’. They did not even acknowledge my other complaints and tried to remove the word ‘misogyny’ from the one they did (partly) reply to. 

Allied relationship - supporting each other. 

So, when the British state (FCDO, prime minister, Boyd, Police Scotland) realized I was in an allied country asking for asylum on the basis of persecution, they asked Switzerland to ask me questions the Scottish Police had not asked in 2005, in order to claim:  We asked these questions. Look, we have the facts correct (gained illegally from the Swiss). 

No doubt they have destroyed everything that contradicts their true behaviour, since 2005, when they denied me an interview and denied me an investigation, as the mother of a murdered child! 

It is global corruption.  Asking one state to interview someone who has never been accused of a crime, when that person is asking for protection, goes against all asylum rules.  Switzerland was in constant contact with the UK, and I was told this repeatedly, by multiple Swiss state actors.  The UK (Police Scotland, the IPT court, Boyd and Tyre, and the FCDO) was being deliberately embarrassed and exposed by me and the response was to try and silence me, again. I went to Switzerland to ask for protection and to deliberately expose their corruption. Their communications, lies, stupidity (I believe this is their biggest shame to them - not their obtuseness or incompetency - idiocy) and my evidence, were exposing their barbarity. They were desperately trying to 'recover their reputation', manipulating the Swiss government by claiming it was 'for my own good', whilst deliberately traumatizing me by forcing the Swiss to interview me about the most devastating event of my life, eighteen years after denying me justice, when I was asking for asylum on the basis of the current sadistic treatment and denial of my human rights.  I had no opportunity to defend myself because I was not being openly accused of anything because they were subverting the rule of law and getting an innocent immigration officer, in another country, to interview me about a murder! 

How more illegal can it be? 

I answered the questions in the first Swiss interview on the basis that this was a private immigration interview and I described my feelings and how it affected me.  I did not describe what actually happened because I was not told the interview was part of a ‘police investigation’, which it was!  I was being set up! 

No doubt they claimed, which is a generous idea on my part, that this was to get to the bottom of things, for 'my own good'.  It was not.  At the end of the first interview, I asked the Swiss immigration officer why they had not asked me why I was asking for asylum and only then was I granted a real asylum interview! The Swiss were complicit from the moment I entered Switzerland. 

Swiss judge:  The UK has a functioning justice system. 

The claim that the UK has a functioning justice system is farcical for anyone with half a brain. 

The UK does not have a functioning justice system. I used all available means available to me, without the right to legal counsel in the IPT case and appeal, because I did not have hundreds of thousands for the privilege of a legal expert. By the time I got to the IPT Appeal request I was financially ruined (the only way I could actually pursue an appeal in fact) - I believe this was the intention; I had had to return from China (I was stalked all the way by anonymous Scottish police officers on social media) and had to request temporary accommodation from the City of Edinburgh Council.  I had to live in the most vomit covered (literally), tobacco-stenching, dope-smelling, drug-addict, alcohol-addict filled council accommodation maintained by aggressive and abusive, highly paid landlords for three months, while I wrote and submitted my appeal. Without social assistance. Almost impossible conditions.  Deliberate, as intended by Alastair Jack, the Conservative Secretary of State, who knew who I was and would absolutely have known I was returning to Scotland.  As I said, I worked in the Scottish Government and Parliament.  I know what communications are passed and I know how!  I also worked and campaigned for the Scottish National Party, before it became so depraved and corrupted. 

But I did it. I submitted a detailed and coherent appeal - it is on my website (www.lucyinbetween.com).As I said, I was denied any kind of social financial support, even though I paid tax all my life in the UK.  I went on hunger strike as a temporary protest and was told by the council social fund: We will not give you money for food because it is your choice not to eat. 

I was told I had no official right to any financial support on the basis: You do not normally reside in the UK. 

My life was deliberately being made hell, and I was forced also to start another court case against the Secretary of State who responded after two months in the UK: It was a mistake.  You are entitled to support as a British citizen! 

Did they offer compensation for this deliberate ‘mistake’? 

They were trying to break me and destroy me. The system is designed to de-incentivize and break your will. 

So, during this time (July 2023 to October 2023), under this duress, I still learned, by myself, how to submit an appeal. This demonstrates my strength of mind, under extreme duress, which the FCDO had repeatedly questioned, and still do, since I started to write about corruption in Iraq, in 2018. The extremes this inevitably took, whilst in Switzerland, will be detailed in another blog.  This was their intention.  This is what persecution is: ccharacter assassination. 

I could not find a lawyer to represent me for the appeal.  The frequent response was: We have no expertise in this subject (the first IPT appeal request in Scotland). So, I successfully submitted an appeal request by myself.  Went to meet Judge Colin Tyre, who immediately said to me: You cannot discuss anything that happened after your IPT Court secret case decision in Dec 2022 and denied me an Appeal against the decision (‘nothing illegal took place’).  In other words, even though I had written a detailed report detailing what the FCDO and British Embassy in Beijing did to me in China (and Iraq), and my court case in China (again, I was plaintiff), in my appeal, he did not want me to discuss the incompetence of the IPT judges in front of witnesses in Scotland. He did not want a verbatim record of me stating what he knows I know, clearly and concisely in a court.  Again, he wanted to cover up for his mate (Colin Boyd), the police and the FCDO.  Both Boyd and Tyre, joined the Scottish High Court at the same time, so of course both know each other, intimately! 

It's not what you know; it's who you know. 

'COPFS - We do not keep the records of the 'sudden death' of sixteen-year-old children from 18 years ago!' 

When Danny died, I made requests to the COPFS to ask why they were not investigating the murder of my son.  No reason was given. (Boyd’s flippant response is in one of my badly written books on KDP).  A book written with the intention of reporting the facts of my childhood. It wasn’t written from the heart.  It wasn’t written for therapeutic reasons - I got over the shitty childhood in Scotland like the majority of women in Scotland get over the misogynistic, shitty childhood we had. In fact, when Danny was 3-5 years, I was involved in a magazine which was specifically campaigning on behalf of children in Scotland - I had gotten over it so much I was a campaigner for those without a voice! 

(This last point is very important when I tell you what happened to me in Switzerland and how the FCDO illegally obtained a document, from someone in Switzerland after I left.  A document which was destroyed by a Swiss judge, in front of seven witnesses, which the FCDO then circulated globally to try to make me look like an unhinged, pathological liar and to stop me getting asylum protection anywhere.) 

So, after leaving shitty Scotland in 2013 I was forced to return, in 2023, because of the stupidity and corruption of idiots in Scotland and the UK.    

In 2023, when returning briefly to challenge the IPT decision, I, again, made requests for the documents related to the investigation into the decision by Judge Colin Boyd and was told by the COPFS:  We do not keep the records of sudden deaths of sixteen-year-old boys in Scotland.  Your criticism of us and your emails could be considered abusive! 

The source of all of this grief, cover up, corruption, abuse of power and persecution is Judge Colin Boyd, which started in 2005, at the most devastating time of my life, and continues to this day.  My poverty and situation are the result his moral degeneracy, incapacity and corruption.  It is not as the result of a malfunction on my part. I am being persecuted for telling multiple, global truths. 

Boyd abused his position of power to cover up the murder of my sixteen-year-old boy, and he knows that I know.  That is enough motive for Boyd to stalk me, ruin me and try to have me permanently silenced.  His whole career wcould be tarnished, again. In fact, multiple people in Scotland want me to ‘shut up’, because no doubt their careers were largely influenced by their behaviour and lies during the cover up of my child’s murder. And now! I have no doubt the murderer(s) and those who covered it up have not had their careers interrupted and would put money on the fact some of them are still in the City of Edinburgh Council and may now be at the very top of the money tree. 

The City of Edinburgh Council, in their infantile, narcissistic and psychotic way, still stalk me around the world, claiming their behaviour is:  routine, normal and not specifically for me.  But they still refuse to answer FOI requests about their behaviour so I can compare it to the way they treat other people they retain inaccurate information about. 

IF there was any justice in the UK and IF, the justice system actually worked.   

IF he/they cared, which he/they do not.   

I believe Boyd is a psychopath.  If you look at the multiple, high-profile miscarriages of justice he has been involved in, and I am absolutely sure is willingly involved in right now (as VP of the IPT), you can see his corruption and callousness is encouraged by a state which continues to employ him.  

Just another example of a dysfunctional and morally corrupt justice system.   

Next post coming soon… 

Second blog post for Science for Justice, Netherlands.

After eighteen years of cover up and abuses to my human rights, the murder of my son, I asked for political asylum in Switzerland . 

I am well aware of how the British justice system is supposed to work and I am well aware of how the European system is supposed to work.  I studied both at Edinburgh University, as a mature student twice (32 when I started in 1999).  I also worked as a temp for multiple Scottish Government departments since its inception and since Donald Dewer was the first First Minister.  I worked in a building in the High Street (which was close to the Church of Scotland Assembly Hall) for the temporary (via Pertemps) Scottish Government.  I worked in the Standards and Procedures Department and multiple other departments in 2001 when Randy Reverand Douglas Stevenson was being exposed (not fully) in the tabloids.  One of my jobs was to collect newspaper reports about ‘issues of interest to the Scottish State’. I was basically collecting newspaper reports about a Church of Scotland Reverend (Douglas Stevenson) I had an affair with whilst at university! I had to take a year out to let the story quiet down.  

As a Sociology student I studied western society in all its parts (1999-2004 - my late son Danny was fifteen when I finished).  My children were with me always and at no point were my children living with any other human being during their childhood. This is confirmed by tax codes, school reports, my own GPs (Brough, Black and another (non-Irish) one). I owned my own home worth about 150,000 pounds and had an 11,000-pound mortgage on it. I studied Politics 1, Philosophy 1, Social History 1, Sociology 1, Social Demography 1 in the first year, which basically gives you a grounding on the Enlightenment, and every philosophical, social and political tradition which the British and European justice systems are built upon.   

I took both my boys to Gambia when I finished my Sociology MA to show them how fortunate they were and to show them how other people lived.  This trip was after I received 5000 pounds for an exposé on Douglas Stevenson.  

Being in Gambia and meeting boys his own age made Danny very sad, but my youngest son was too young to understand and was only ever interested in Danny making him laugh anyway, when we were all together. 

The second time I went to Edinburgh University was between 2007-2009, after Danny died - I had set up an after-school youth club, mainly to benefit my youngest son, if I am honest, who, as I said, had lost his brother at the very important age of ten (2005) and was desperately lonely.  He was 12 when I set up the club.  

I had funding from multiple charitable funds for the youth club and got on to this MA course in Community Education as a result.  I was a student studying community education and international development. 

When Danny died my youngest son was very withdrawn and watching him so alone tore my heart to pieces.  He and Danny used to spend every moment together in the house in Polwarth, Edinburgh. We were a very close, tight-knit little family. Sometimes he forgot Danny was dead and it was heartbreaking to remind him that Danny wouldn't be there when we got home (he was so excited to see his big brother and tell him everything). This happened twice and I can still feel the pain he felt and the pain from watching my son suffer with grief, for the second time, third time.  Every major event in his young life reminded us that Danny wasn't there to share it with us.  We knew what we were each thinking when major life events happened (moving up in high school, getting a deep voice, getting a girlfriend, passing all his exams, growing a beard). Our hearts broke over and over again, but there was some comfort for me in knowing we shared the same grief.  We were the only ones who shared the same grief!  

I kept all the legal stuff from my youngest son because what he was dealing with was enough and he was too young to understand.  I told him Danny had had had an accident, and it was left at that.  I don't know what other people said to him but one nasty boy at primary school mocked him, by making jokes about the 'falling man from the twin towers'.   

My son was found dead at the bottom of a high-rise block of flats, apparently, from ‘falling from the thirteenth floor of a high story building’, two floors underneath the home of my disgusting brother.  

He had no broken bones!  

The conflicting story told to me by Danny’s neighbour and the behaviour of Christopher Turnbull, Morna Turnbull (thankfully deceased), Jenny Hutton and Alan McCune immediately after his death, and in the last three years, to me, point to murder. I have always known it, and their behaviour shows they are hiding something. 

Why did they tell Police Scotland they were my son’s next of kin? 

Why did Police Scotland take my narcissistic mother and neurotic sister to see my son’s body in the morgue before they informed me? 

Why did Colin Boyd refuse to give me a reason to not investigate? 

Why did Police Scotland not interview the only legally responsible parent of a dead child? 

Why did Colin Boyd, eighteen years later, try to silence me and have me stalked around the world, via Police Scotland, the FCDO and the IPT court? 

On what legal ground can a police force have an immigration officer interview someone suspected of something dodgy, without giving them the right to defence from a criminal lawyer?  

Professor Gill and I asked Swiss immigration for a full copy of the interviews (recorded, transcribed into French and English, confirmed by my signature to be true), which should have been contained in my asylum file:  They refused to send them. 

Christopher Turnbull is one of my disgusting brothers whom the City of Edinburgh Council repeatedly pass my details to. Without my consent. The same disgusting person I cut out of my life and Danny's life when Danny was two years old. The same disgusting person who, along with my mother, told Police Scotland that they were my son's next of kin. The same disgusting person who could have been the last person to see him alive and the same disgusting person who has been stalking me, courtesy of the City of Edinburgh Council, Police Scotland, the IPT Court (Colin Boyd) and the FCDO. I will come to the Turnbull’s narcissistic psychopathy later.  The only reason I don't go into it now is because narcissists and psychopaths want everything (even my life and the death of my child) to be about them!  Their narcissism, and police incompetence, has cost me my life, my son’s life and my rights as a loving mother to have a normal life. 

So, I know exactly what is supposed to happen, intimately, theoretically, practically and politically, now procedurally in the UK and in Europe.  I understand the justice system as a graduate and post-graduate, not as a previous user of the justice system prior to my son’s murder! In Edinburgh University we studied European politics, the European Union, the European Court of Human Rights, the Maastricht Treaty, etc. as part of the degree. 

Since 2005 however, I have to had personally try to use the British justice system, multiple times (Crown and Prosecution Service of Scotland (COPFS) - 2005/6) - a year after my first degree from Edinburgh University.  I had tried and believed that when a child died it should at least work then. I had tried and half-believed a specialist court, monitoring illegal surveillance (the Investigatory Powers Tribunal - 2021 - 2023) would at least give me legal representation and the chance to speak. I used the processes I had believed were there to protect innocent people.  Every single time I was treated like a criminal. The more I challenged the system and people in the system the more global my persecution became, and the more intense and disturbed it became. 

Since asking for asylum in Switzerland, the 'secret, illegal reports' have been circulated to people with tremendous power in Switzerland, whose English is not more than A2 level, and this gave many sick people outrageous opportunity to damage me in ways you cannot imagine.  Stupid people.  Sadistic people. Unprofessional people. Unethical people. Compromised people.  People who do not understand the justice system in the UK, or even English.  I was thrown to the wolves because of reports written by disgusting and aggressive officers in Police Scotland (because I tried to report crimes in Iraq and I tried to make a missing person report; and, of course, after being refused and treated very aggressively by Scottish Police, before and after having made multiple complaints).  

A quick word on the culture within institutions. 

If we imagine that the systems in the UK and Europe are not occupied by these kinds of individuals and wish to see them as some kind of opaque, ethereal 'entity' then we admonish the individuals which make up these institutions and they escape the consequences of their obtuse and sadistic lies, decisions and behaviours.  Institutions are people, not 'entities'.  Although you could argue that the culture within them can promote a sick way of behaving, the culture is made by people and policies written by people.  It is not 'alive' and not even an ethnographic researcher or anthropologist would argue a human culture exists without people.  People are the culture and the culture is the people.  Institutions have cultures which are created, reinforced, and broken by people and other institutions. They do not exist without people willing to enforce it.  People need to be identified and held to account within these cultures. 

Oct 2023 - I went to Switzerland to expose the abuses I was experiencing because nobody would give me reason or justification for anything. 

Predicting what the continued consequences of ‘secret’ reports and hidden networks with global reach (IPT, FCDO, Police Scotland reach, into potentially everything I do and still do) would continue to do on my life and my now-ruined career, I decided to force the result (consequence) myself and took another option (UK justice failed again to provide me with anything).  In theory, my asylum claim should have been successful. I should have been granted a temporary asylum on the basis I asked for it. If only to allow me to work without being stalked by anyone in the City of Edinburgh Council or Police Scotland (on behalf of those higher up).  Or, to allow me to live and write.  You cannot do this without a passport. 

Explicitly understanding the clear intent (from experience in China and Iraq) and the predictable, continued direction of the lies being written and recorded about me (started in 2005 from the Turnbulls, Boyd, the Barzanis and Police Scotland); which were then repeated in the IPT courts, and forcing the consequences of such lies, allowed me to expose multiple things they had done and were doing.  They refused to accept responsibility for anything and, due to this denial, would continue to do so, if I continued to work globally and try to behave ‘as normal’.  I had already proven that this would happen, and I had already been ruined because of these lies, circulated outside the UK.  That is why I asked for an Appeal. To stop this repeated abuse, ruining the rest of my life.  I life I had created out of nothing and after the murder of my child. 

I made a request for asylum. 

I entered Switzerland via a cheap flight the morning after (October 2023) I received the decision from Judge Colin Tyre, stating that I could not have an appeal, and especially because of the phrase, 'You cannot take this any further.  Your right of appeal ends here. (This interprets as: You did not have the right to defend yourself in the IPT case in Dec 2022.  You did not have the automatic right to a lawyer in the appeal hearing.  You do not have any right to the information we used to come to our decision in Dec 2022.  And, you have no human right to appeal this decision in the last court, the ECHR. You have no human rights at all. This is the basis, in Europe, for asking for asylum and it is enshrined in UK law also.  What I did not know is that every single European country has a catch in their law which says, 'No European country can give asylum to a citizen from another European country (regardless of persecution)'.  This shows extreme political selectiveness, not based on human rights, but based on loyalty and global politics.  It is simply a them and us system: westerners via others. Citizens via the elites. Mark Carney (Canadian Prime Minister) admitted it recently at a WEF meeting:  We were lying about how the old international rule of law was applied to everyone fairly.  It was not.  We will be using a new system (same system, new words) now. 

In our appeal request meeting, Judge Colin Tyre actually said, 'People have tried (to take an appeal to the ECHR) before and failed.'  I found Tyre flippant, condescending, obtuse, detached from empathy and any understanding about my destroyed career and life, and assuming.  In his written decision he suggested I use the 'Citizens Advice Bureau (CAB) to help me'.  But, as I did not normally live in the UK and had absolutely no plans to live in the UK (and had left the UK in 2013 and again in 2021 at tremendous expense (3000 plus pounds) after being stuck there due to the pandemic), especially considering what the British state had done to me outside the UK, why would I spend the next ten years using a process that does not work and especially when I know all of the processes I can use which are repeatedly denied to me? And, given, at this point, absolutely nobody had told me why I was under surveillance, why I was denied legal representation and why everyone appeared to be breaking fundamental British laws and international laws.  WHAT exactly would I be going to the CAB to ask?  Nobody would admit what I knew had happened. 

I am not/was not incapacitated.  I had understood or learned and used all the processes that should have worked.  It wasn't that I wasn't capable.  It was that the system refused to perform its function of providing information I am entitled to and offer redress.  

You must admit lack of capacity to stop us harassing you.  

Individualise, medicalise and pathologize your normal behaviour and normal requests.  A form of sadism and anti-human pseudo-science. Specifically for dissenters. 

The medicalisation of dissenters is documented in many books throughout history.   

When the system refuses to admit to fault, it moves on to the next abuse, using ideologies and theories, unproven and possible even unprovable. Just ideas and beliefs dressed up as facts – like ‘gender’, for example. These ideas are about belief and are so prevalent in society that the arguments for them, even though they are tautological, exist in just about every mind in Western society now.  

When you refuse to agree with a society’s base ideas (philosophical, political, behavioural, modern medicine) processes within the culture of that society (with the help of people who are blind to what other explanations exist or willing to lie), withing the system need you to claim you are incapable of doing ‘normal’ things.  This is in order to control your desire for justice and to give those sadists, incompetents and narcissists in the system the opportunity to claim 'compassion' after sadism (intentional or unintentional). It is to resolve their cognitive dissonance because otherwise they would have to admit to great harm of people who do not and did not conform to a very misguided and myopic way of seeing humanity. It takes away their responsibility and accountability. It is a very strong desire and motivator to people who have caused great harm to avoid the catastrophe of what they have done.  It is also to satisfy those with huge egos, sadistic attitudes and behaviours to show that they cannot harm you directly after you expose them, so they will force you to harm yourself, by demanding that you claim 'incapacity, lack of ability'. The system is designed this way. The culture in the west works this way. Court cases cannot go ahead unless harm can be proven. Deviance from this norm is considered abnormal.  Therefor anyone with a belief in Buddhism is considered fundamentally abnormal.   

What if you are a resilient person who heals but wants justice or believe western cultures suffer from a disturbing malaise? 

This is social control.  It is very much the way the British have acted around the world during colonialism.  It is the British character. 

"We have come steal from you.  We believe you should believe you are incapable of being civilized.  We will take everything we want, and you will be grateful. We will oppress or kill you if you disagree."  

I refuse to admit that I am incapacitated in any way, because I am not, except that I have been made penniless, jobless and homeless by people who are intellectually stunted. 

Torture in Switzerland 

The majority of asylum seekers are tortured in Switzerland. I am not alone, but my specific kind of torture is a western kind of torture, and very specific to me, which foreign asylum seekers do not and did not experience.  Many were aware that I was being treated differently and much worse than they were and many, many of them exploited this to cause me very great harm, especially the foreigners and Muslims working (paid) in the asylum centres. In ORS - the European organization paid to manage asylum centres. 

The daily barbarity of many very feral, uneducated foreign men and women I shared rooms with and the barbarity and sadism of ORS staff I will describe. The asylum centres are dominated and staffed by non-western foreigners. It was confronting for other asylum seekers, and it caused enormous suspicion to see a westerner living amongst the other asylum seekers.  It made them extremely paranoid and extremely suspicious.  I was accused of being a reporter, a spy and a covert immigration officer, working for other countries as well as the Swiss; by staff and asylum seekers. There were some nice ORS staff who could confirm the paranoia of some of the foreign security and ORS staff.  Swiss and European staff made up about 20% of staff. 

As well as dealing with the barbaric conditions, I had to sit and listen to multiple very fake tales from people who assumed I had never worked in some of the countries they were coming from and did not understand the difference between economic migrants and genuine asylum seekers.  Their naivety led them to tell me the biggest tales which immigration officers clearly had no way of checking or verifying.  There were many serious criminals, sexual offenders, seriously mentally ill and extremely violent people, with extremist views and a genuine, unhinged hatred of Europe. 

Those criminals, and there are many who managed to work the system and say everything immigration officers were looking for, knew intimately what to say and do to be accepted. I listened to many conversations and justifications from asylum seekers telling me why their right to asylum was justified.  These were the ‘nice’ ones.  These were the ones who thought they should at least offer an explanation.  Many feel that just being from a country (not at war) gave them automatic right. Many were just reading a script. Some tried to tell me what to say.  

Having lived around the world, and in Iraq during war times, I know war does not automatically mean your life is at risk.  Iraq, in 2014 when I lived there, was one of the safest places on earth, contrary to what western media reported.  Yezidis were at risk everywhere, but non-Yezidis could often live safely in many parts of Iraq.  The myth that everyone living in a country at war should automatically be considered a potential asylum seeker is a misnomer. 

In my second asylum centre I was forced, as an only woman, to sleep in a bed, in the middle of an open sleeping space for men.  Men who had not been interviewed.  Men who liked to violently attack each other.  Murderers.  Rapists.  Paedophiles.  Unvetted and dangerous men.  The man who told me to do this was an Arab working for ORS.  He claimed, after I sat almost silent in the two days, I was there, in a women’s room: 

‘You have upset every single man in this asylum centre.  You have offended every single man! You must leave Switzerland right now!  I will call immigration and tell them you will come and get your passport.’ 

(An impossibility, given I had not spoken to hardly anyone except the security guards!)

His reaction was due to the fact Police Scotland and the FCDO, via Switzerland, had circulated their lies to every single asylum camp I stayed in.  Knowing it would get me assaulted.  Knowing the same ethnicities working and living in the camps would share this information (criticising Barzanis and Islam and the UK.

I called the local Swiss police who told him he had no right to tell me to leave a country that was not even officially his country! 

My next post: 

My first experience of brutality and torture 

Third blog piece

INTENTION - PSYCHOLOGICAL TORTURE 

I ask some of these questions facetiously.  It is not illegal to be facetious, yet! 

What could possibly be the intention of keeping the foreign passport of someone who has been rejected as an asylum seeker; wants to leave the country - but is prevented from leaving AND prevented from working (Article 2 - The Right to Life (the prevention of foreseeable harm)); who follows all stipulated rules given (even if they are illegal); leaves the country (in fact the whole of the European Union and Schengen area) and is then still denied their passport for a further six months?  Your passport is necessity to prove legal identity, conferred citizenship, history even (visas and travel), and the ability to work and apply for visas in other countries, and also to travel freely/legally in the present and future. 

Second question:  What abilities and resources (money, the ability to make friends, communicate, function in civil society) do you need to have to be able to travel across a whole continent without a passport; what understanding do you need to have of European laws and asylum law (without a lawyer); what level of fitness and state of mind do you need to have to successfully do this? How many friends and potential friends do you need to have/ quickly make to be able to do this? 

How does this contradict with a narrative intended to torture you ‘for your own good’? 

As a British citizen I can receive visas on arrival in over 100 countries; am free to travel across Europe and live for three months; can apply to work in Europe and all over the world; and can apply for residency visas, business visas, transit visas, tourist visas and work visas for over a hundred countries.  Why should I be forced to give these to Switzerland, a country I did not want to stay in, and which was both torturing me and preventing me from working and leaving?  That would in fact be insane behaviour! 

What could possibly be the intention? 

My passport was eventually released but to someone in a different country to me - Professor Gill in the Netherlands.  I was denied it when I was in Switzerland and I was denied it when I left Switzerland.  It was not a Swiss passport.  It is a British passport.  I am not Swiss and I do not have another passport for any other country.  Not having it, forced me to do illegal things in order to create a situation where I could live in peace, freely, and work.  I had to cross borders illegally.   

My desire has always been to live in peace.  Always.  

I was forced to ask for asylum in Croatia (and live in an even more disgusting asylum camp for three months with very violent and extremely mentally ill African women).  Not to mention the extremist Syrians, Chechens and Afghanis. A lot of their behaviour is down to ignorance, superstition and ideology.  I was assaulted again, lifted up like a doll and thrown hard on to the floor by a young African woman - I am 58 years old - in Kutina Camp. The women I was deliberately forced to share a 25ft square room with, as part of the torture, used to defecate in buckets in the room, which was ten feet from a bathroom.  They would store up the shit and piss and vomit under their bed for 24 hours, then dispose of it in the shower (not the toilet right next to the shower) in the middle of the day, when other women were showering.  The shower!  I was the only one who complained because I was the only one who knew what standards were supposed to be and I knew they were creating a health hazard.  Nobody else (300 people) said anything!  They were a community health risk, let alone a risk to themselves and every other person sharing a space with them or showering in the same showers.  They were both given houses on the beautiful Croatian coast (a month after assaulting me), next to unsuspecting locals who will no doubt one day pay for this decision, personally.  People do not suddenly change these kinds of habits, especially if you have an organisation (the UN) claiming they are ‘normal’!  The UN in asylum centres refuses to acknowledge the problems. 

I was assaulted, for a similar reason in Fribourg, Switzerland, by a different young African woman. I was picked up and thrown violently to the floor, in Croatia, because I moved the stacks of her stolen, rotting, perishable food, which was attracting flies and ants into the room, away from my bed and over to the bed of the violent African.  I moved her cooking stove also.  Staff in the centre refused to enforce the rules of no cooking in the room because they could not be bothered.  Again, it was a health risk, let alone absolutely vile and disgusting.  There was a kitchen to use upstairs.   

This attitude that ‘I will do what I want’ and ‘I will knowingly be filthy, disgusting and unhygienic’ (some use it as a form of protest) is deliberate as well as through ignorance.  Many of these women come from places where they do not have running water, cook in the open and do not have basic hygiene knowledge.  It is something they have to be taught.  But it is not something which is taught in asylum camps.  Instead, they bring their ignorance and fight to keep their ignorance.  There are no incentives to change their behaviour in the months and years they can live in asylum camps.  There is no basic education to show them why it is unhygienic.  An increase in previously eradicated diseases is caused by this cultural ignorance, which is sometimes a political protest. And that is why I was assaulted.  I tried to reinforce basic hygiene to prevent myself from getting sick.  The consequence was I was assaulted.  

The UN turned a blind eye.  Three male security guards did what was necessary.  They spoke her language.  I am grateful for these security guards.  Security guards are the only people who actually see what goes down in these places.  That is probably one of the reasons the UN stipulates that asylum seekers (who are compromised because they are asylum seekers) can work in these centres (in Switzerland). Switzerland is more corrupt than Croatia and Bosnia, richer than Croatia and Bosnia and most asylum seekers pass through the Balkans on the way to Switzerland for those reasons:  potential corruption and more money.  You can’t blame them for exploiting an already immoral and corrupt system. And, in fact, there is a very specific asylum camp in Bosnia, specifically for those ‘asylum seekers passing through’, on the way to Europe!  I joke not! 

In Croatia and Bosnia, they seem to have anticipated this kind of corruption - only Croatians, Serbs and Bosnians work in their centres!  Many of the ones working in Swiss asylum centres cannot find work anywhere else! The UN, who are present in every asylum centre, are a cultural-changing, tick-boxing, unethical and immoral organisation.  

In Chemin de la Rossierre Camp, Fribourg, Switzerland, I was assaulted because I was sharing a room with a young woman who had stacked the room with stolen goods and I asked her to create some space for my one bag.  Inside and outside the room were brand new shoes - hundreds of shoes - clothes, make up, etc. On the floor was a disgustingly dirty carpet.  I asked her to remove it, so I did not have to smell the stench coming from it.  She refused.  In fact, she spent her whole time in her boyfriend’s apartment near the asylum camp and only slept there once in three months.  Her bed was paid for by the Swiss state. Since she refused to remove the carpet, I removed the carpet and put it outside to air when she was not there.  She immediately came back and assaulted me violently after an argument, three times.  The ORS men who were on duty at the time - one was Turkish and one was African - lectured me on how Helen was traumatised and that I did not understand how her trauma affected her.  While deliberately trying to wind both of us up in order to start a fight.   

She lost it.  I defended myself.  When I asked them to call the police, the Bangladeshi manager told them to blame me. The police arrived and did nothing.  I asked them to take me to the hospital.  I went back to the room about 11pm after being refused a safe space at the hospital and she was still there.  She assaulted me again.  The African ORS member of staff totally lost control, was standing shaking his arms in the air, erratically shouting, ‘Lucy, you don’t understand, Ellen has suffered trauma!’  I was sitting on a chair.  I wish I had filmed his agitated behaviour.  He was a very large, black, French-speaking African who stalked me all over the camp when he was there.  Immediately after he left, poor little (violent) Ellen picked up all of my belongings, computer and all, and threw them into the corridor. I left them there, to prove what she did and went back to this insane ORS guy and asked him whether he was going to allow her to assault me every time she felt that her ‘trauma’ justified it. Then he moved her.  No lecture for Ellen!   

The first bed they offered me in Rossierre was in a room nobody wanted to enter because of the other African woman in the eight-bed room.  She had built a religious shrine on two of the beds, surrounded it with symbols of Jesus and effigies.  It was like a voodoo room. I refused to stay there and then they offered me Ellen’s stolen stash room.  After living in at least seven different asylum camps by then I knew the business strategy of sub-Saharan Africans.  If anyone ever gets the privilege of entering asylum camps you will literally find stacks of stolen clothes, all neatly folded.  There is up to ten huge bags (massive LIDL type bags) filled with clothes they have stolen, or taken from local charities (ORS included), intended for ‘desperate asylum seekers’, and poor local people.  Africans go to volunteer in these places, take all the clothes for themselves or their African sisters, as part of their business plan.  The plan is to stack up the clothes for when they are eventually deported because the UN gives them a few thousand Euros, plus an air ticket, plus they transport all their bags back to their home country, as soon as they agree to leave.  As soon as they have stocked up as much as is not noticeable in the asylum centre without it being thrown out.  As I said, at least ten bags.   

It is a business strategy!   

Africans (only female Africans) also do this with the free supermarket food the local supermarkets give to charities - but with the food (in Switzerland it was the most expensive meat, delicatessen items, chocolate, salmon, etc) they resell it immediately to their African friends who have already gained temporary or permanent status in Switzerland.  It is, if I am honest, a very effective community and business strategy, but it is completely immoral.  Ukrainians, who were the wealthiest asylum seekers, because they immediately get about 170 Euros a week and accommodation on arrival, never got a sniff.  Other, non-African asylum seekers had to group up to stop the Africans from stealing everything.  I could still take you to the places this is happening in Switzerland if I ever wanted to visit that shit country again.  I’ve lived in seven different countries, and aside from the fact I was an asylum seeker in Switzerland, it was one of the most barbaric, disgusting countries I have ever lived in.  Completely anti-human, even to its own citizens.  Corrupt to the core.  Europeans and Swiss call it ‘The Whore of Europe’, because they take money from anyone and asylum seekers can buy citizenship if they have a big enough bank account. 

The conditions in Swiss and European asylum camps are deliberately intended to cause severe stress and trauma to test whether asylum seekers will succumb to ‘learned helplessness’.  They use various methods to try to force you to conform.  One of them is to force you to live, side by side in tiny spaces, with very abusive and sick people and then be abused and disrespected by equally abusive and sick people who work in these camps. It is deliberate. One of the tactics is to gaslight you after you are assaulted.  All of the tactics are designed to abuse you, humiliate you, try to traumatise you, belittle you.  The people complicit in doing this, in ORS, can refuse.  The majority don’t. The majority seem to be comprised or complicit in some way – believing their presence will stop the abuse; not caring whether they are part of it; or asylum seekers who cannot speak out. I believe many of them do not even understand why they are doing it and convince themselves it is justified, in order to deal with their cognitive dissonance.  Many believe they are there because they care.   

You cannot be part of an organisation that tortures people and also be considered a compassionate person.  It is an oxymoron.  

I also knew someone who was interviewed for a position in the camps and told he was too compassionate to work there.  Compassionate people create compassionate contexts.  Compassion is not what the Swiss want.  Contrary to what people probably believe most asylum seekers are tortured in Switzerland and probably in many other parts of Europe too.  A Sudanese man with a lovely family worked in ORS and once when I had a complete breakdown (and was sent back the same day to Giffers) he stood and observed the whole thing.  He was compassionate but could not do anything.  I met him when I left Giffers on the bus and shook his hand.  He had not lost his compassion.  But he was compromised.  He was with his two beautiful young girls, on a bus, in Fribourg.  Sometimes you have to choose your loyalties to survive and the Swiss use this to cuckold people on behalf of the UN, maybe. 

By denying me my passport (on the order of Keir Starmer, I am sure, because it is during his time as PM - I left Switzerland Dec 2024, and it was released in July 2025.  I received it Aug 2025) I was left deliberately without any ability to earn or even receive money in Switzerland, Italy, Slovenia, Croatia, Bosnia due to the fact my passport had been kidnapped by the Swiss Government.  Every other nationality in Swiss camps (probably in all European asylum camps) was entitled to 20 Euros a week, except:  British, American, Australian etc.  All other nationalities also have multiple charities, set up by their ethnic friends, providing them with both financial and practical assistance (food, clothes, money, respite from the camps).  I was at a disadvantage in every way.  It wasn’t until I got to Rossierre, after being tortured and still being tortured, that I was given 20 Euros a week (after six months in brutal camps, nightly listening to a rapist rape his wife in the final one, Giffers). ¹ Eighty per cent of the money I received in Rossierre went to paying my storage in Edinburgh to preserve my children’s books and mementos from my time as a good mother.  It also contained the evidence which showed I was telling the truth.  I was a good mother.  A dedicated mother.  That I tried to get to the truth in 2005 and was denied by Boyd.  That my youngest child lived with me until he was 17 (and was still alive) and that both my children were raised by me.  Not only raised by me but loved, cherished, protected as best I could, and were my world.   

The proof also that after my son’s murder was covered up and that the Turnbulls claimed they were his next of kin. I arranged his funeral as his real next of kin during this sadism towards myself and my son.  They invited themselves to his funeral! I asked his teacher, Sheila Mayberry to come to his funeral and it was Sheila who invited all his old Primary 7 classmates together to talk about my son in the most respectful and beautiful way at his humanist funeral. She loved my son and had not seen him for at least four years.  He was a special boy!  She never forgot him! 

I was forced therefore to ask for asylum again due to my liberty and right to life being at risk (my passport was refused to me), due to the Swiss and British governments.  The reason I gave for reluctantly asking for asylum in Croatia and Bosnia was - denial of liberty by the Swiss (Article 5 ECHR - that no one be confined to a particular space for a non-negligible period without proper legal justification) - the capture of my passport.  No way to prove my identity, to work legally or travel legally.  It is my legal right.  Nobody had accused me of any crime.  The Swiss gave me the legal document proving they had and were keeping my passport, regardless of which European country requested it.  In fact, I was told, illegally by both Croatia and Bosnia, that they could not request my passport so I could not end my request for asylum, without again travelling without it.  So, I was also forced to live in these disgusting camps again (deliberate torture) for about four months in Croatia and about five months in Bosnia/Republika Srpska. 

The whole scenario stinks of insanity and the people trying to justify this are in fact psychopaths, as I said before.  Forcing someone to live in disgusting camps, with violent and sick people, with no right to have them face the consequences of assault, is torture and no ability to work or leave, goes against multiple of my, supposed human rights.  I just needed my passport.  I was denied it for years.  I paid for it.  No reason given!  

Let’s go a little bit further and consider what happens when your right to life and your right to liberty are denied and the justification for it is:  NOT GIVEN!  Let’s consider the mindset of those making those decisions, making arguments that everyone should adhere to these conditions, and the slimy, cowardice and weaselliness of people never challenging the callousness and sadism of this decision.   

The people responsible are sadists and must be completely devoid of humanity, and out of touch with reality! 

No justification has ever been given.  

It is an example of extreme delusion on the part of those making that decision.  Extreme delusion! Possibly psychosis, if they also truly believe it is for anyone’s own good. 

If you deny someone the right to liberty and the right to life, knowing that in doing so you are causing them extreme harm, you are doing it to cause them extreme harm (whether you admit it to yourself or not).  Only under the kind of perverse and extremely psychotic justifications could anyone even argue denying someone the right to liberty and the right to life is ‘for humanitarian reasons’.  The likes of real serial killers argue with this kind of logic. 

‘I killed her because it was better than living.  I did her a favour.’ 

Look up any serial killer and I am sure you will find this delusional and psychotic way of thinking. 

So, for two years, the (Swiss and British) people stopping me from living a legal life, where I could earn money, travel and thrive, let alone the most important thing - escape Switzerland and their barbarity - were in fact insane psychopaths.  The description above proves they are insane psychopaths.  No sane person would argue that this behaviour is good for anyone.  It only satisfies the twisted logic of an insane person.  I am sure they are still involved in ‘commenting from a distance’, given multiple people are aware of what they did to me and know nothing can be done unless I make an official complaint and it is taken seriously.  I did make a complaint, several.  None were replied to, of course.  Psychological torture is permitted! 

So, I repeat, again, on what basis was it decided that my passport should be retained (‘for my own good’) by a foreign country I wasn’t in, when nobody knew what I was doing day by day (it is nobody’s business), or where I was (from August 2024, in Switzerland, when I was hiding; to January 2025 when I requested, in Zagreb, that the British FCDO tell Switzerland to release my passport)?  

Switzerland knew I had left because I did not change my Swiss number until Croatia.  I just switched off my mobile crossing borders so that I would not be detected! It was that simple! The only time it was difficult to cross borders was between Croatia and parts of Serbia.    Crossed multiple borders calmly, smiling, friendly, relaxed and with ease.  Total ease!  Nobody helped me!  I did not require assistance, thank you!  I am a seasoned (20 years) international travel, and I have worked three times in Iraq.  Crossing friendly European borders was like drinking a cup of tea.  Not to mention the fact I look like a native European - a local! 

Literally hundreds of people I met when I did not have my passport said to me, ‘There MUST be a reason!’ In order ‘to capture you so you can face trial’?  Trial for what?  One of Starmer’s jumped up claims that I am/was a security risk? When I exercise my right to criticise his authoritarian and dictatorial fascist state? Everyone knew where I was when I was in Croatia!  I called the British Embassy, on a Croatian number.  They called me a liar! I recorded it.  They knew where I was in Bosnia! For months, they knew where I was and for months, they did not, or pretended they did not, because I was always with witnesses.  Some dangerous witnesses.  By coincidence.  If there was some kind of warrant, why didn’t they come and get me?  Because there wasn’t, there isn’t.   

This is the British MO.  They do not accuse you of a crime, but they put you in situations where they hope you will be forced to commit a crime.  This is also what they do to asylum seekers in Switzerland.  They test your absolute human limit and then blame you for being human.  Some people kill other people.  Many men take it out on the local population.  All like-minded, barbaric, dangerous, psychotic, extremist was very happy to have a little toy like me to try and doubly torture as their (ignored) revenge on white Europeans.  I was a target and deliberately kept a target as a form of torture. 

Psychologists will tell you the effect of psychological torture on people, most people, and the difference it has on people who are already dangerous.  It is deliberate.  It is intentional.  Asylum seekers are deliberately tortured to push them to the limit to start a civil war with local people. No psychologist will ever argue that torture does any good and the ones covering it up in Switzerland and Europe are complicit in torture!  They are sadists, quite simply! 

I am a very self-controlled, self-aware person who is not violent in any way, and I would never harm a fly.  But I am also capable of defending myself or fleeing from somewhere if I feel I am about to be violently attacked.  That is my right. 

Kidnapping my passport was also another way to cause extreme doubt about anything I was saying, even my identity, and a means to cause great suspicion everywhere I went.  At one point, I was accused of murdering someone, which was a horrible thing to be accused of.  

‘You must have murdered someone.  Only people who have done something really bad have their passports kidnapped!’  

FOR STATE SECURITY 

I am a 58-year-old, peaceful, British woman, a teacher of English, who left the UK in 2013.  

There was no warrant, international or otherwise, so, in what way was it good for me to retain my passport for an additional eight months after I left Switzerland and gladly gave up my claim for asylum?  

TORTURE 

What was the justification for torturing me in multiple ways, in multiple countries? 

The justification is that the Swiss and British use psychological torture on dissenters for the ‘security of the state’.  That is what the IPT is about.  That is why their decisions are kept secret. That is why you cannot scrutinise the likes of Boyd and Goss. That is why every European country has a clause in their asylum laws, as dictated by Brussels, that:  No European country can give asylum to a person from another European country, even if they are being tortured.  It is enshrined in law.  Just ask Julian Assange!  He was tortured for years, openly.  

That is why you cannot get access to the information the IPT Court uses to make decisions, because if you did and if the public knew that British and European countries use torture on their own citizens there may be civil unrest. 

I doubt in the UK that there would be, but there might be.   

Even slightly raising the possible idea that you have been the recipient of a miscarriage of justice is enough to experience extreme torture from the British state because it challenges the hierarchy, the elites and the crown.   

More and more cases are coming into the public arena which demonstrate the barbarity of the British justice system.  You just have to look at the way the justice system is set up.  The fact you are only entitled to a free lawyer if you are the victim/perpetrator of a criminal act.  But, not entitled to one if your human rights (equal to criminal law) are denied by the state.  You do not have human rights if you do not have the automatic right to a lawyer to defend your human rights in the obtuse and complex courts of ‘law’. 

So, any justification which was given (not to me) that kidnapping my passport was ‘justified; explained; legal’ is false from every angle, except for the purpose of torture.  Psychological and physical torture.  But the torture had started a long time previously and continued, just in a different format, whilst in Switzerland. 

Other asylum seekers kept their passports, wisely, on asking for asylum.  Just in case they had to leave.  I guess they understood the system better than I did.  I consulted lawyers and specialist security advisers while in Switzerland and they all knew that what was happening to me was illegal, or so it seemed.  But all the people who helped me, did not have the time to read my complex story and I did not want to test their patience.  I was grateful for the help of several Swiss citizens, but their patience always ran out when I told them: the reason this is happening to me is persecution.   

When you are in a precarious situation, absolutely relying on the kindness of others, you cannot tell them everything.  You can only tell them as much as they can handle, as much as they have time and patience for.  Your day-to-day struggles, not having enough food, being assaulted, having your clothes stolen, is too much. You have to be grateful for what you are given.  Without which you would not survive. 

Nobody believed my story because I am not an argumentative, attention-seeking person. I am actually quite quiet, but I will speak out, like Danny, when ill-treatment is obvious.  Nobody believed me because they did not have the time to read what I had (stacks of legal documents) and I did not have a place to write and often did not have a computer or internet. 

It is not coincidence that the one brave person who did help me (and her many generous friends) started to be harassed herself, her livelihood threatened and her liberty seriously threatened.  That is another reason I had to leave.  Being around me, helping me was in fact dangerous for Swiss people.  I did not want to be responsible for harming anyone. I cried many times over the potential harm that could be caused to compassionate and kind people.   

Violent people were rewarded.  Compassionate people were harassed and threatened.   

MOVED CAMPS AS A FORM OF PSYCHOLOGICAL TORTURE 

It is a common psychological torture tactic to prevent people from building relationships.  I met some people in the camps that I wanted to keep in touch with or just spend time with as I figured out what to do.  I was moved around seven or eight camps.  Some were better than others.   

When my request for asylum was rejected, I was moved to Poya, now closed.  It was barbaric.  There were different rules and laws for different ethnicities.  Turkish rules for Turks and Kurds for Kurds.  Arab rules for Arabs.  Afghani rules for Afghanis.  Somali for Somali.  Eritreans and Somali women often had physical fights, spitting on each other and dragging each other by the hair, while their children watched in horror.  Babies were traumatised, vomiting, were drugged to sleep because of the conditions in the camps.  A woman from sub-Saharan Africa came at me like a bull, running along the corridor, arms swinging because I told her to keep out of my sleeping space.  As soon as she started screaming ten African women of different nationalities all appeared, as seemed to be the ritual when a fight breaks out.  I stood and did not move! I asked them, which of course made them madder:  What is it that you think you are doing, huh?  Your answer to disagreement is to violently attack everyone who disagrees with you?  She was being held back, just, by other women.  An ORS woman came up, Alexandria (European), who stood in between and stopped the potential assault. I walked away.  I was beginning to dislike many African nationalities, whereas before I had no such prejudices. 

At the same time, in the same camp, I was told to share a room with an Afghani family.  Strange thing with Afghani families how their male members never protest to other women sharing the same space as them!  I protested! Nothing was done.  This family was also drugging their children to sleep because that is what the local hospital was telling them to do, to allow their children to sleep in that hell hole.  Drug them!  I complained about the father coming in deliberately just after I had showered, multiple times.   

We were all asked to come to the security room to ‘discuss’ the situation.  When the father arrived, of course Afghani fathers have never been challenged by a woman, he put his child (under one year old) on a table, just standing and the child fell off.  A Bangladeshi security guard (in front of a Swiss guard) turned to me and said, ‘That was your fault!’  He was deliberately trying to traumatize me and was enjoying it.  Seriously enjoying it!  

In Poya camp, the security guards, who were mostly not Swiss, forced everyone to stand, legs spread, arms against the wall every time they entered from being outside.  As if we were all potential criminals.  I refused.  I refused every single time.  I deliberately forced them to call the chief, who was Somali who refused to speak directly to me, every single time.  I refused and asked:  What are you going to do about it? I am not a criminal, and I am sure this is illegal.  If you suspect some people are stealing and bringing stolen goods into the camp, search them.  You have no right to search me every single time I return.   

The reasons they would not search the Africans who were stealing is because the camp was mostly occupied by Africans and many of the guards were African, so any violent event that happened could not be controlled.  African thieves were bringing stolen goods into the centre and selling them to other asylum seeker and security guards.  Only when police arrived were they stopped.  At one point a whole group of Algerians were rounded up and deported all at once. 

One Somali girl, travelling on her own, was sexually assaulted in the kitchen by a very old Somali man.  She was told by other Somalis to say nothing or there would be consequences.  She was assaulted in the middle of the kitchen, in front of ORS staff and about twenty other asylum seekers.  Nothing happened.  No consequences for the people who assaulted her or threatened her - A Somali family with a young girl, or the dirty old bastard who grabbed her crotch. 

In Poya camp I stopped eating due to the abuse and ridicule I was experiencing from Africans and the Muslim staff.  I asked to see a doctor multiple times.  Once I was told, after being assaulted, to go to the hospital myself.  So, I walked to the hospital emergency department by myself, got a blood test and was told there was blood in my urine, from having a door slammed into me by two African men.  Again, Professor Gill and I asked for the medical records from the Swiss hospital and the full set of records were denied.  Instead, information supporting the narrative coming from the FCDO was released.  No letters of complaint were included in those files.  No record of my meetings with a completely psychotic doctor who refused to allow me to talk about the assaults and torture happening to me.  No record of my complaint about her irrational out of control behaviour during our meetings, when every time I tried to raise my voice about her complete projection of her own problems and her refusal to get her to document what was happening to me was met with:  

 You have PTSD.  No, you have CPTSD.  No, you have this.  No, you have this.  Oh, this is all about your childhood.  Oh, this is all about your work relationships.  Oh, this is all ‘post, post, post’ - nothing to do with the PRESENT ASSAULTS!  

Multiple people who were being assaulted and abused in the camps and who refused to conform to learned helplessness were put on drugs.  Most did not know how dangerous these drugs were.  Most did not know or dare to refuse.  Swiss doctors were/are making a fortune from medicalising the trauma deliberately caused by asylum centre staff and conditions.  All were sent back to the camps, and the process was repeated over and over again.   

When you asked to see a doctor, you were refused. 

When you saw a doctor, he could not speak English. 

When you tried to report it to a doctor, they refused to let you speak. 

When you complained about the psychotic doctor you were given, you were gaslit. 

All the time, you were sent back to the asylum camps. 

The doctor I saw for over six weeks did not once allow me to report the assaults and abuse I was receiving.  At times she would storm out; tell ME to act more compassionately; at one point she told me I had to manipulate the men in Rossierre because their egos were fragile and I had to massage them in order to be treated better!  Everything I tried to report she would immediately come back to me with: 

Childhood trauma!  PTSD! CPTSD! 

She was compromised!  She was one of the most damaged and drug-addicted people I have ever met in my life.  She had zero listening skills and zero perspective on life, except that:  men are all bad; all behaviour is based on childhood trauma; the Swiss camps are not bad!   

I had to repeatedly go back to this woman, who I handled calmly and gently in fear of her feeding her psychopathic tendencies and I more than once asked to ‘take a break’ , voluntarily, in their five-star hospital because it was like going from Dante’s Hell to heaven.  A clean room with clean bed, people who used the bathroom, regular food and no assaults – except that is from two African members of staff, in the hospital!  The hospital was dominated by African and Middle Eastern care staff.   

At one point, after being assaulted two days previously, by Ellen, I went to the hospital to try to speak to someone and left because they refused to see me, I was forcibly incarcerated and I recorded the whole thing.  You can listen to it here: https://on.soundcloud.com/5Izn2bSnJMu7lTnZcH

I am calm.  I am reasonable.  The Russian doctor refuses to justify what she is claiming.  Stating: 

You are psychotic. 

To which I replied:  How am I psychotic?  You should really explain that assertion! 

To which she replied: Oh, yes, and that is the other thing, you are not only psychotic, but you are psychotic and your refuse to accept that you are psychotic. 

I immediately wrote to a judge.  He came to the hospital, ripped up her document (which has far reaching consequences for my life of course) and released me.   

If I was so psychotic, how did I manage to, again under extreme duress, write my own legal argument immediately to a Swiss judge, demand he release me and successfully be released?  The two ideas are not compatible! 

But that gave the FCDO and Starmer the document they wanted all along.  A document which was ripped up and a document which they obtained illegally and then circulated to Croatia, in order to have a reason to try to force me back to the UK. 

This was the narrative that the FCDO and British State wanted and this was the narrative (I knew from studying and campaigning for people who experienced child abuse) that would have been plausible had I not completely overcome my impoverished childhood and in fact campaigned on behalf of abused children; and also left the UK completely where I successfully started a very happy new life! 

By the time I had almost died, from an overdose, due to the repeated assaults, torture and almost starvation, and being told ‘You cannot leave without your passport, but you must leave.  We will, we won’t give you your passport if you give us tickets.  You also cannot work or earn money, and you do not have your freedom, and of course it is it is all your own fault!”  I had all the evidence I was looking for. 

The snippets of information I got from the deranged doctor, repeated by the doctor who released me from the hospital, which is part of the procedure, I knew, for a fact where all the information was coming from: 

Police Scotland 

The FCDO. 

The Turnbulls 

I knew that I could request the documents the release doctor would write.  I knew also and was threatened by the doctor who signed Alexadria’s ‘order’ for recording her, that the recording I had of her showed they were breaking the law, and so I knew I had all the evidence then to show the British State were slandering me and were using lies they got from Iraq, from Police Scotland, from the IPT and from Boyd to try to silence me.  I know because I recorded the doctors who tried to lock me up and I am absolutely calm, because I knew that that was always going to be the inevitable result of what the FCDO and Police Scotland were trying to create.   

The lies which claimed: 

I had previously had a ‘psychiatric history’ - Nope!  This came from an Iraqi in Kurdistan; Police Scotland who repeated their lies; these lies were used to silence me in a US court where a Barzani was claiming he wasn’t running a fake university – he and the FCDO claimed I was an unreliable witness (I was the Director of his fake university language institute in 2020). 

Both my children were dead. (My youngest son is 32) 

I did not raise my children. (All records show I raised my children, alone) 

My family raised my children. (They said this to cover up the murder of my child in 2005) 

I was a former drug addict or alcoholic.  (I do not drink, smoke or take drugs) 

This narrative is repeated in multiple countries without scrutiny.  When you ask for records and reports, only records and reports with this narrative are released.  Evidence, facts, recordings, emails, from me to the FCDO, to CEC, to the Cross-party Group on Human Rights in the Westminster Parliament; to multiple politicians, are withheld.  Anyone who does not believe that multiple people across multiple countries can willingly repeat things that they cannot verify but which have now grown legs does not understand how the culture of denial pervades all governmental and other institutions.  People have repeatedly written and repeated lies because by the time they discovered they were lies they were already complicit and so had to defend their lies.  How could they be so stupid? 

I was never and have never been psychotic in my life.  I was calmly observing the character of people willing to severely damage someone and then try to cover up for their stupidity, regardless of who it destroyed!   

These lies are still circulating.  Listen to the recording of Alexandria Klimenko! 

Abusive doctor stealing my liberty with a tautological argument! 

To summarise before I continue to document the torture I have experienced: 

1. Judge Colin Boyd, previous Procurator Fiscal in Scotland, refused me an investigation into the murder of my child, in 2005.  Refused me even an explanation. Moved to the IPT court in 2019 and then denied me the right to legal representation and silenced me. 

2. In Dec 2022, Boyd, held a secret meeting in the IPT court and denied me the right to even read the reports the IPT court stated were used to come to their conclusion:  Nothing illegal took place! I was the plaintiff and in southeast Asia at the time. 

3. In 2018, when I reported abuse in an Iraqi university to the British Embassy, the FCDO wrote reports that came from that university and hid those reports from me. These reports were used in a court case against Saqi Barzani, between 2021/2022, in the US, to claim I was an ‘unreliable witness’.  Secret reports from Police Scotland, were also submitted to this court because Saqi Barzani told me publicly his cousin (the Prime Minister of Kurdistan) had reports from Police Scotland, claiming I had no qualifications and had only ever worked in a shop!  At the same time, the FCDO contacted Christopher Turnbull, possibly the last person to see my late son alive and gave him my location and the power to tell these abusive employers to do what they wanted! 

4. Since 2005 I have been denied an explanation why an investigation was not started into the murder of my son; since 2020, when I reported a fraudulent university in Iraq covered up by the US Government because it was a money laundering operation, I have been persecuted and slandered, assaulted tortured, denied my human rights and had my passport kidnapped. 

These are all related.  By the time I got to Croatia I had all the information I needed, and I also had a copy of the document the FCDO had obtained illegally, from Switzerland, which was literally ripped up by a Swiss judge.  

The British have no justification for torturing me other than the fact I tell the truth, about their use of torture and their willingness to cover up the murder of children! 

From Poya I was moved to one of the worst known camps in Switzerland: Giffers!  It is a high security camp where you cannot leave without asking guards to unlock the high security doors.  They often pretended you were not even there, as a form of psychological torture and to test your ‘learned helplessness’. I was put in a room and forced to share a room with two Afghani families - two men, two wives, five children.  One of the fathers was raping and sexually assaulting his wife, right next to my bed, every second or third night.   

I will continue soon…